The Low Place Consulting

For so many years of my story, I thought the goal was to get rid of the pain. 

Then, once and for all, I would be free. 

What did that look like for me?  Mostly achieving, avoidance and addiction. 

Once I lost 100 lbs, still me.

Once I had a really high networth with multiple properties and businesses, still me.

Once I divorced from an abusive marriage, still me. 

Once I came out and was loud about the person I loved, still me. 

Once I went back to school to finish my undergrad degree, still me. 

Once I went on a hunt to repair relationships with family, still me. 

Once I bounced from therapist to therapist to try and fix me, still me. 

Once I started mental health medications (still on them) still me. 

Once I wrestled with food and alcohol to feel better, still me, but felt worse. 

Once I received a chronic illness diagnosis and thought the treatment would fix it all, nope still me. 

Once I went on a theological hermitage to only find out I was enough and incredibly loved  just the way I am, you guessed it, still me. 

I don’t want to discredit these beautiful moments of my story. I love them, but they did not serve the purpose that I thought they would. They didn’t bring me the freedom and joy that I longed for. 

You see here what Dr Gabor Mate puts so beautifully, the goal is not to get rid of the pain. Healing is when we build the capacity, grace, humility, self forgiveness and love for our pain and hold hands with her, not run from her and learn to hold her. 

May we all learn to hold our pain. 

Love, 

Rebecca